So this blog is basically for me to be able to vent on life. and if you're that interested to see how everything is going with me, or just get to know me better, I guess it can be for your enjoyment as well. questions will be bolded, feel free to answer. 

            

The past few weeks have been nothing less than tough for me. I've been going through a ton of changes and my mind has been non-stop thinking, about everything. School, boys, my future, my religion. I've just been so, unbelievably stressed. 

School:

It all started when I got a D on my chem final. That was a smack in the face after studying hour after hour trying to understand what the heck i was doing. I thought i had it down. once i got the final, i froze. Does anyone else have that problem? where you get a test, you know the things, and then all the sudden, you just freeze up. It's the most frustrating thing in the world. Another thing is the people at school. i feel like i don't have many friends. i love the few friends i do have though and you know who you are. A lot of the people at syco high go out and party on the weekends, and i know i've been subject to failure in that area. i used to be one of them. Then God interceded into my life and now i want to stay as far away from that as possible. School just surrounds me with people who do things that i'm not interested in doing anymore. I still love all the people who party, i just don't want to do what they do. so please dont take offense to that.

Boys:

The topic on all girls minds. Boys. ohhh man i don't even know what to say about the guys... I know a few good guys. Who would do anything for their friends. They are so awesome. But i know a lot of guys who treat girls.. like crap. absolute garbage. For me, i have this guy that i've liked for awhile. No name will be stated. He is just so.. absolutely wonderful. He is the nicest person i've ever met, and we get along so well. He knows i exist, we are actually good friends. but it probably won't be anything more than friends. Which for me is hard, but i know that he is always going to be there as a friend. I'm also pretty sure he knows my feelings for him. if you have any advice for me, i'd love to hear it. i know God has someone out there for me, i'm just what you call impatient. plus i've tried to like other people. and it just doesn't happen. me = frustrated. 

My future:

Being a junior highschool STINKS. i'm ready to move on and go to college. I'm ready to meet my future husband. i'm ready to go to college, find a career. Become an art teacher and a youth pastor. i'm ready for all of it. but like stated above, i dont have patience. I want to go to niu because they have a great art education program. anyone else going there?

My Religion:

Most important part of my life is God. he's been working in my heart for the past year and oh my gosh how much i have grown. i know God has put me on this earth to lead people to him. He has introduced me to so many people that have taught me so much and will forever be in my heart.

my mom is dragging me to dinner, so im being rushed to get off this thing. <3

<3- kristen - <3